Thursday, June 30, 2005
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Spicy Jokes - Brave Soul
Spicy Jokes - Brave Soul:
"Brave Soul
A guy arrives at the pearly gates, waiting to be admitted. St. Peter is reading through the Big Book to see if the guy's name is written in it. After several minutes, St. Peter closes the book, furrows his brow, and says, 'I'm sorry, I don't see your name written in the Book.'
'How current is your copy?' he asks.
'I get a download every ten minutes,' St. Peter replies, 'why do you ask?'
'I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I was always the stubborn type. It was not until my death was immanent that I cried out to God, so my name probably hasn't arrived to your copy yet.'
'I'm glad to hear that,' St. Peter says, 'but while we're waiting for the update to come through, can tell me about a really good deed that you did in your life?'
The guys thinks for a moment and says, 'Humm, well there was this one time when I was drivin' down a road and I saw a giant group of biker gang members harassing this poor girl. I slowed down, and sure enough, there they were, about 20 of 'em torturing this poor woman. Infuriated, I got out my car, grabbed a tire iron out of my trunk, and walked up to the leader of the gang. He was a huge guy; 6-foot-6, 280 pounds, with a studded leather jacket and a chain running from his nose to his ears. As I walked up to the leader, the bikers formed a circle around me and told me to get lost or I'd be next.
'So I ripped the leader's chain out of his face and smashed him over the head with the tire iron. Then I turned around and yelled to the rest of them, 'Leave this poor innocent girl alone! You're all a bunch of SICK, deranged animals! Go home before I really teach you a lesson in PAIN!'
St. Peter, duly impressed, says 'Wow! When did this happen?'
'About three minutes ago.' "
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Picture Time!!!
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Yep, time to stress-test this, see how many pics I can fit up.
This here's Alyssa, from the classic NES game "The Guardian Legend".
Don't know who this is, but I do know I don't want to cross her. O_o
KAWAII!!!!!!
My current state of mind with my work PC.
Nope, seems not to be working liek I'd like to... how can I make it so the next block of text continues after the image?
EDIT: Seems to show up ok, even though it doesn't on the preview pane... hmm....
Hmm, testing Pic Upload
Hmm... seems I can upload pics to Blogger now... Interesting... I'm gonna have SO MUCH FUN with this option....
By the way, that one looking all yummy there next to me is Fathom, from the comic book by the same name. A Water-aspected Dragon-Blooded if I ever saw one. ^_^
Yes, that's all water. ^_^
Also, it seems Blogger takes the full-size pic up, yet resizes it to fit on the post. But if you click it, you still get the full-size image, for your viewing pleasure!!
Friday, June 24, 2005
Darkness
Amazing the darkness that can seep into one's soul in a moment of weakness.
A string of coincidences leads me to a moment of utter despair, where the darkest recesses of my mind can easily bully my concious mind, forcing me to believe in things that I know are not true, forcing me to face things that are not true.
For those crucial minutes, they are true, in my head.
I shiver, trembling in my workplace. A part of my body's trembling is the cold, but with 2 shirts, one of them long-sleeved, and a jacket on top of it all, everyone still stares at me when they see me trembling. That's because the shivering comes from the cold in my heart.
My heart simply freezes over when confronted with the tricks my fear plays on me. Shutting out all warmth. Closing to all. Suddenly everything looks so calculated and clinical. Greetings from coworkers turn to poisonous hipocrisy in my eyes. Even the person who granted me the cigarrette and lighter I use to try and escape looks like another person laughing behind my back.
I am afraid.
Moments and a few calls later, everything turns out to be a misunderstanding, but the fear remains. Not the original tricks, but now that those have been utterly dispelled, new tricks created to slip in the cracks. What if it was a lie? What if she was somewhere else? What if THIS is the truth?
I know these tricks for what they are, yet that is probably what I fear the most. That even when I know them, they still find their way in.
I am weak.
From a logical standpoint, something all too easy to see now that my heart is frozen, all of them are plausible arguments against everything I hold dear. What if they ARE lies? Yet only the warmth that is gone from me can bring me back to my original viewpoint, to my original place in the scheme of things, or, more like to where I thought I was, or where I think I stand, in the scheme of things.
Ever so slowly, and only for a few minutes, almost an hour, I die inside.
I know I will probably not remember this for long. This episode will fade to the recesses of my memory, like all other things do. One of the blessings of a really lousy memory, I guess. But I know, that my future ignorance to this event will only last so long as to my next moment of weakness. When my fears will use this episode as further proof that they are right, and I am wrong. That I am wrong to trust in others and their words, such as they are easily falsified. Feelings? Just the things I want to see in others, nothing more.
Or so they say.
I sit here at work, in my desk, seemingly shuddering from the cold. If someone could visually see how I feel though, they'd see a 5-year old, crumpled into a ball, with all his darkest fears mocking him and teasing him from just outside the dim light that is his hope for his future.
Photo In the News: Hubble Snaps "Eye in the Sky"
Photo In the News: Hubble Snaps "Eye in the Sky"
I'm sorry, but as most of those who play in White Wolf's World of Darkness can attest, there's something incredibly wrong with this.....
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
P A P E R . H E A R T :: Music Video - Kiss - Because I'm a Girl
P A P E R . H E A R T :: Music Video - Kiss - Because I'm a Girl
Quite possibly the prettiest, yet saddest music video I have seen. The song is beautiful as well.
BBC NEWS | Science/Nature | New model 'permits time travel'
BBC NEWS | Science/Nature | New model 'permits time travel'
"If you went back in time and met your teenage parents, you could not split them up and prevent your birth - even if you wanted to, a new quantum model has stated."
Neural Networks vs. Computer-Networked Environments
Neural Networks vs. Computer-Networked Environments:
"In 1960, psychologist Stanley Milgram had discovered the paradigm of ‘6 degrees of separation’ – the fact that all the people on this planet seem to be linked by an average of six connections. In his original experiment, Milgram had sent letters to a random selection of people in Nebraska and Kansas and asked each of them to forward the letter to one of Milgram’s friends, a stockbroker in Boston whose address he didn’t give them. The people in Nebraska and Kansas were asked to only send the letter to someone who they thought might be socially closer to the stockbroker. The experiment has now been recreated various times (always with the same results) – for example by the German newspaper Die Zeit, which tried to connect a Kebab-shop owner in Frankfurt to his favorite actor, Marlon Brando."
An interesting read.
MDN: Special
MDN: Special
American George Weller was the first foreign reporter to enter Nagasaki following the U.S. atomic attack on the city on Aug. 9, 1945. Weller wrote a series of stories about what he saw in the city, but censors at the Occupation's General Headquarters refused to allow the material to be printed. Here's his original account, written September 8, 1945.
Monday, June 20, 2005
bleachexile.com
bleachexile.com
Here's the Bleach manga for reading right off the 'net! I know what I'm gonna do next time i go work... ^_^
Saturday, June 18, 2005
This is an interesting read...
This is what I dedicated myself to doing today at work: a run-through of Wikipedia (again), this time on X-Men and mutants in general from the marvel universe.
FUN!
List of X-Men
Friday, June 17, 2005
Aleister Crowley - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Aleister Crowley - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
The Wickedest man in the world.... hmm....
Scientology - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Scientology - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia:
"have characterized the Church of Scientology as an unscrupulous commercial organization; it has often been described not as a religion, but a man-made cult that harrasses its critics and exploits its members. Many of the Church's most controversial actions are, critics argue, a direct reflection of Hubbard's Scientology teachings."
But can't the same be said of all religions?
This reminds me of some popular lines that I will never forget, from the much-acclaimed game Castlevania: Symphony of the Night.
Richter: Die monster! You don't belong in this world!
Dracula: It was not by my hand that I am once again given flesh. I was called here by humans who wish to pay me tribute.
Richter: Tribute? You steal men's souls and make them your slaves!
Dracula: Perhaps the same can be said of all religions.
Richter: Your words are as empty as your soul! Mankind ill needs a savior such as you?
Dracula: What is a man? A miserable little pile of secrets? But enough talk, have at you!
Lyrics - Youhna - Houki Boshi
Kanji
夜空を見上げ一人 ほうき星を見たの
一瞬ではじけては 消えてしまったけど
あなたの事想うと 胸が痛くなるの
今すぐ会いたいよ だけど空は飛べないから
もしあたしが ほうき星になれたならば
空駆け抜け 飛んでいく
どんな明日が来ても この思いは強い
だからほうき星 すっと壊れないよ
雨が降って嫌だと ぼやいていた時に
あなたが言ったこと 今でも覚えてる
雨の後の夜空は 綺麗に星が出る
それを考えると 雨も好きになれるよねと
もしあたしが ほうき星になれたならば
溢れる光降らすよ いつも
悲しい時 夜空見るあなたが
笑顔になるように もっと輝きたい
あなたはいつも一人 何かと戦っている
傍に居ることしか あたしには出来ないけど
もしあたしが ほうき星になれたならば
空駆け抜け 飛んでいく きっと
必ず届く この一瞬の光で
あなたのイマ照らし 空を巡ろう
あたしが ほうき星になれたならば
きっと傍にいてあげる どんな時も
Romanji
yozora wo miage hitori houki boshi wo mita no
isshun de hajikete wa kiete shimatta kedo
anata no koto omou to mune ga itaku naru no
ima sugu aitai yo dakedo sora wa tobenai kara
moshi atashi ga houki boshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tondeiku
donna ashita ga kite mo kono omoi wa tsuyoi
dakara houki boshi zutto kowarenai yo
ame ga futte iyada to boyaiteita toki ni
anata ga itta koto ima demo oboeteru
ame no ato no yozora wa kirei ni hoshi ga deru
sore wo kangaeru to ame mo suki ni nareru yone to
moshi atashi ga houki boshi ni nareta naraba
afureru hikari furasu yo itsumo
kanashii toki yozora miru anata ga
egao ni naru youni motto kagayakitai
anata wa itsumo hitori nanika to tatakatteiru?
soba ni iru koto shika atashi ni wa dekinai kedo
moshi atashi ga houki boshi ni nareta naraba
sora kakenuke tondeiku kitto
kanarazu todoku kono isshun no hikari de
anata no ima terashi sora wo megurou
atashi ga houki boshi ni nareta naraba
kitto soba ni ite ageru
donna toki mo
Translation
Alone, I looked towards the sky and saw a comet,
Although the burst suddenly vanished in a moment.
My heart becomes hurt with thoughts of you,
Right now I want to be with you, but I can't leap the skies so...
Maybe if I could become a comet,
I could leap through the skies to you.
Whatever kind of tomorrow comes, since a comet is always unbreakable,
This feeling is strong.
I don't like it when it rains. When it was dimmed out,
I remember what you said, even now.
"In the night sky, after the rain, beautifully, the stars appear."
Considering that, I've come to like the rain too...
Maybe if I could become a comet,
The overflowing light will fall,
So whenever times are sad, the you who looks to the night sky
Will come to smile and, like the comet, want to shine more.
What are you always fighting with on your own?
Being by your side is something I can't do but...
Maybe if I could become a comet,
I could leap through the skies to you.
Surely, without fail I'd reach you in this moment of light
And your now illuminated sky will revolve.
If I could become a comet,
Surely, I would rise by your side,
Whenever the time.
Guardian Unlimited | The Guardian | The height of romance, as Cruise pops the question
Guardian Unlimited | The Guardian | The height of romance, as Cruise pops the question
I can't help but feel angry for some reason...
DS Wi-fi Bounty - StoneHome
DS Wi-fi Bounty - StoneHome
$1025.77 for the person to implement a TCP/IP stack on the Nintendo DS... nice!
Ain't It Cool News: The best in movie, TV, DVD, and comic book news.
Ain't It Cool News: The best in movie, TV, DVD, and comic book news.
an X-Men 3 Script review. Early stuff, spoilers abound.... though still an interesting read into why it could or could not be good.
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Here's my try at forced writing
They had been put on standby, to observe for any new happenings at the old chapel. Most of the squad was there, with the added, though unknown, supervision of Alistair. Only a handful of people know where Alistair is at any given moment, and, considering the importance of a person with his knowledge and position to the Ordo Dracul, he takes considerable risks in not being where these few people think he is. But then again, he pretty much got to where he is by precisely the same emotion that puts him where he is now.
Curiosity.
The "squad", as Alistair likes to call them, since their organization and high-tech toys makes them look like an elite top secret squad of some high-ranking secret organization, is pretty much the latest invention of the Ordo Dracul. This group, the Five, was created to "see without being seen", to observe for some strange metaphysical phenomena that have been ocurring in isolated locations in the city and surrounding geography.
Now, the squad in and of itself, although having for members some of Alistair's closest friends, is not in and of itself the reason that Alistair is here. Since Alistair has known, the wielders of supernatural power are the Kindred, and to some degree still not well understood, a group of creatures that, for lack of a better term, we have to call "werewolves". He was, in a way, duped into being a vampire precisely because of this, for the power that he would then wield. But ever since he learned the true repercussions of what he has become, he has looked for a way out of it, something all others consider impossible. For this he has earned a lot of enemies, but in this purpose he has also gathered a substantial amount of knowledge regarding such subjects as Kindred lore, knowledge of supernatural phenomena at large, and or some of the happenings in the past of humanity that don't quite mesh with what you see in history books.
Nuklear Power - Home of 8-bit Theater
Nuklear Power - Home of 8-bit Theater:
"Shadowrun is a game where discussion about getting Coke from a vending machine can involve the phrase 'missile launcher' within three steps and no one will balk. I am fully confident one could detail the exploits of any run and append the phrase, 'Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time,' and never be right or wrong."
You know, I've always wanted to play this game, but after this quote, I REALLY want to play it. ^_^
Ok, done
There we go. My Wikipedia marathon is done for today. Tomorrow I'll hit Random Page again and see where I end up. ^_^
Lots of weird pages, though...
Tapestries MUCK - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Tapestries MUCK - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
The weirdness continues....
Bukkake - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Bukkake - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
I keep ending up in weird places.....
Ecchi - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Ecchi - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Now how did I end up here?
Hentai - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Hentai - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
BTW, this is my waltz from topic to topic, following only links from one article to another, in Wikipedia...
Yuri - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Yuri - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
What I read at work....
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Amazon.com: Electronics: Sony 1 GB High Speed Memory Stick PRO Duo Media (MSX-M1GS)
Amazon.com: Electronics: Sony 1 GB High Speed Memory Stick PRO Duo Media (MSX-M1GS)
At 100 bucks with free shipping! The cheapest I've seen it so far...
Desktop Java Features in Mustang
Desktop Java Features in Mustang
Nice read for Java freaks like me. ^_^
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Old School Systems :: Wasson's NESPC Tutorial
Old School Systems :: Wasson's NESPC Tutorial
Unarguably the BEST PC Case MOD ever!!!
The Most Important Story Ever: Preventing PMS
The Most Important Story Ever: Preventing PMS
"Everyone prepare to dance a jig. I'm there already and its really hard to jig and type at the same time. The latest research suggests that a diet rich in calcium and vitamin D may prevent premenstrual syndrome. Somebody get me a bullhorn STAT."
We're getting closer...
Seems we'll have the answer to our prayers tomorrow morning, at least those of us with PSP Firmware version 1.50.
^_^
PC: Flintlocke Episode Guide
PC: Flintlocke Episode Guide
Very cool World of Warcraft Comics by Gamespy.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Japan unveils "robot suit" that enhances human power - Yahoo! News
Japan unveils "robot suit" that enhances human power - Yahoo! News:
"The 15-kilogram (33-pound) battery-powered suit, code-named HAL-5, detects muscle movements through electrical-signal flows on the skin surface and then amplifies them."
Slashdot | Rail Guns Closer to Reality
Slashdot | Rail Guns Closer to Reality
Yahoo News is reporting that scientists at Sandia National Labs have created a magnetic pulse gun (rail gun) that can accelerate small aluminum plates at 34 kilometers per second, faster than the Earth travels through space. The accelerated plates strike a target after traveling only five millimeters, or less than a quarter-inch. The impact generates a shock wave -- in some cases, reaching 15 million times atmospheric pressure -- that passes through the target material turning matter into various states almost instantly (solids into liquids, liquids into gas, and even gas into plasma).
Yikes!
Geeks make good lovers@Everything2.com
Geeks make good lovers@Everything2.com
Gee, and it took them THIS LONG to realize this???
Thursday, June 09, 2005
P A P E R . H E A R T -- Lyrics - UVERworld - D-tecnoLife
P A P E R . H E A R T -- Lyrics - UVERworld - D-tecnoLife
Kanji
癒えない 痛み 悲しみで キズついた 君よ
消せない過去も背負いあっていこう 生きることを投げ出さないで
つないだ君の手を
いつか失ってしまうのかな
薄れていく 笑顔と君を守りたいから
響く僕を呼ぶ声さえ枯れ
時に沿う風にかき消されたって
君を見つけ出す
癒えない 痛み 悲しみで キズついた 君
もう笑えないなんて 人嫌いなんて 言葉そう言わないで
見えない未来に起こる事 全てに意味あるから
今はそのままでいい きっと気づける 時が来るだろ
錆びきった人のように
重なり合うだけで虚しくて
一人で生きて行けるって言ってた
ありふれたやさしさ言葉じゃ
今はもう届かないほどに 君は疼きだす
つないだ君の手は なにげないやさしさを求め
Do you remember
痛みを知る事で 人に優しくなれるから
Drive your Life
癒えない 痛み 悲しみで キズついた 君
もう笑えないなんて 人嫌いなんて 言葉そう言わないで
見えない未来に起こる事 全てに意味あるから
今はそのままでいい きっと気づける 時が来るだろ
How can I see the meaning of life
消えてく you're the only･･･
こわれないようにと 離れていく 君
もう笑えないなんて 人嫌いなんて 言葉そう言わないで
今は by and by 見えなくったて 全てに意味があるから
消せない過去も背負い合ってこう 生きる事を投げ出さないで
You'd better forget everything. Remember･･･ your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember･･･ 戻らないけど
歪んだ記憶のような 時の中でいつか解りあえるから
Romanji
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo
kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de
tsunaida kimi no te wo
itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana
usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara
hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare
toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte
kimi wo mitsuke dasu
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro
sabikitta hito no you ni
kasanari au dake ga munashikute
hitori de ikite ikerutte itta
arifureta yasashisa kotobajya
ima wa mou todokanai hodo ni kimi wa uzukidasu
tsunai da kimi no te wa nanigenai yasashisa wo motome
Do you remember
itami wo shiru koto de hito ni yasashiku nareru kara
Drive your Life
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro
How can I see the meaning of life
kieteku you're the only. . .
kowarenai you ni to hanarete iku kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
ima wa by and by mie nakuttatte subete ni imi ga aru kara
kesenai kako mo seoi attekou ikiru koto wo nagedasanai de
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . modoranai kedo
hizunda kioku no you na toki no naka de itsuka wakari aeru kara
Translation
Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
Your hand that I held...
Will we lose it someday?
I want to protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the wind along time
I will find you
Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
Like a rusted person
It felt so hollow to just pile atop one another
You said you could live on your own
Just with the usual kind words
You ache to a point where I cannot reach you
Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindness
Do you remember
By learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to others
Drive your Life
Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize
How can I see the meaning of life
Disappearing, you're the only. . .
So you will not break, you distance yourself from me
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Now it's by and by, even if you cannot see, there's a meaning to everything
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . though, we cannot return
Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday
Nope, still broken.
I get this error.
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I'm pretty sure the problem is that the page sizes have become too large because of the data: URIs... oh well.
Ok, I think it's fixed now.
Seems to be working ok now, but you guys missed by consequence a pic of Kyra's boobs.
Yep, you lost it.
Sorry.
OK, I think I broke this...
Hmm, if this post shows up, then good. But otherwise, I think I broke Blogger. This place just doesn't seem to be able to handle data: URIs.. oh well.
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