Goodbye...

Hello Darling. How’ve you been? It’s been a while since last time we’ve talked. How’s your life coming along? I’m doing great, except for one small problem. Yeah, I know, maybe I should’ve told you sooner, but I guess I tried, in a way. It just didn’t work as expected. So I’ll try again, the simplest way I can…

I realized that your friendship was worth a lot to me. I tried to talk to you most anytime I could, or even to try and make space to see you sometimes. But to me it feels like there’s no such effort on your side. For a friendship to flourish, there should be a desire on both sides for that friendship to persist, yet I don’t feel that. So I decided to stop.

Now, this doesn’t mean I’m just gonnna not get your calls or answer your e-mail. That’s just the point. There are no calls to answer, or e-mails to reply to. There’s nothing. Hell, I have more communication attempts from undesired people. So I will retreat. I will delete you from my MSN list, seeing as how MSN Plus reports that there’s been no conversation with that person for almost a month, even though I see you online, and also erased your e-mail, seeing as how it’s at the bottom when I sort my e-mail list by how much I receive mail from those people. This way, when you do feel like saying “Hi”, we can just start over, from the beginning. How’s that sound?

I know, maybe I’m being a little selfish. After all, people have lives,, and sometimes there’s just not enough time. But see, at least to my way of thinking, that’s what tells you about friendship, or at least the intent of keeping one. When you do what you can, to the best of your ability.

Or desire.

In any case, goodbye. A part of me tells me that I will not hear from you again, at least for a few months. If you frequent this page, then you will see this, and automatically recognize it’s reason. I will probably be hated for it. But it’s just something I had to say, if only for myself.

Take care, squirt. You’re sorely missed.

Ash.