Also...

... I must learn perspective. Today I almost ruined everything again because I saw things differently from what they were. I gave a lot of importance to something that wasn't so important, and it caused us to be on different pages. When she corrected me, my heart plummeted.

Also, I must learn humility. Who am I to control everything around me. At the risk of sounding cheesy, I have to learn to be a smooth reed, swaying with the flow of fate's breath, than try to fight it at every turn...