I don't feel the pain anymore....

... but I don't understand why... she did say she loved me, but that doesn't mean she'll treat me like she does... am I so "living on hope" that that was enough to take the pain of loss away? The apparent promise that we can be in each other's lives, even if just as friends?

Well, no. I can feel an echo of the pain... you know, it's been such a close friend these last few days, I will name it. I will name it Loss.